When the darkness came today, my beloved and I prayed for protection, deliverance, and freedom. It came.
Why this is such a dark journey I’ll never know. The wretched symptoms I now experience brought me to the foot of the cross where Steve prayed Romans 8:38-39
New International Version (NIV)
38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of Godthat is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Not only did the violent shaking and groaning end, I felt at peace with clarity of thought for the first time this week. That was 3:00 p.m. and it is now 6:00 p.m. Thought I would go grocery shopping but I am depleted. Guess you focus on what is important at times like these. By praying and singing the hymn linked below, I hope we that did just that.
Glad Steve got in his kayaking race practice today and that I didn’t keep him from that too. I feel humbled by this experience where I can do nothing on my own to get better. I must submit to the Lord, pray, and let my husband lead us into both. When I ask Steve how he can go through this with me and not be rattled by it, he says either, “why would I?” or “because I have faith in the Lord.” Yes, I do too.
Thank you Lord for getting me and for getting Steve through this latest test of my faith. Thank you that you give us the confidence we need to face these trials, that you are stronger, strongest, the victor over all. Oh Lord, if it is your will, I pray that you heal me of this terrible disease and restore my life to joy and wholeness. Protect me from further harm; protect my thoughts from doubt and discouragement. Please guide and protect Steve as my Spiritual leader, instrument of your peace. Help me keep my eyes fixed on You. You said that you would restore the years the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25). I pray that you would restore the years the spirochetes and co-infections have eaten. I will trust You and wait on You. In Jesus name, amen.
It Is Well With My Soul :J