Tears going up and down a lot this day
On the roller coaster of emotion I find myself on:
Help cometh x2 but test results won’t satisfy
As here I sit with my neck aching all through my brain.
I tried. I really tried to figure it out and failed.
The symptoms that remain still taunt my peace
Leaving scars, leaving woes, leaving loss behind the hope
And yet my breath prevails so in and out I will also go today
To match the pull of the vampire’s teeth left in my chest wall.
The infusions continue instead of a long-desired break
The bank will love us less, the medical folk perhaps more
Whilst someone’s Mercedes payment will be made
And my saga continues on Big Box Store hamburger.
Hope always seems just one more day out there somewheres
Leaving me here beat up from this morning’s episode of torment
A snuggle with my husband got transformed into caregiving
And more hours were lost in the aftermath once again.
At least my dog seems to understand as she nudges her nose at the leash. “Can’t we go now?” her soft brown eyes contend.
Relief might come in the mail soon
Or maybe not; it’s hard to tell
So I’ll keep calling on my Jesus for now
His calling card never leaves and never fails any of us anyways. JJ