The Hope Beyond story began after kayaking in the Cedarville Reservoir in Leo, Indiana on October 11, 2011. What a great time I had with my husband, Steve, and the Fort Wayne Kayaking Group including enjoyment of Louise’s fabulous cookies afterwards! The only problem with our paddle that night was a few sanitary mistakes I made that led to a devastating bout of hepatitis, trip to the emergency room, and over a month of wretched illness. The Lord alleviated my symptoms enough to enjoy a family trip over Thanksgiving weekend then what would become a severe illness intensified thereafter and never really abated. I struggled to function in my work as an Occupational Therapist in home health care and eventually would need to take an extended medical leave from my profession.
By January of 2012, my Doctor was looking for other causes of the ongoing illness. He identified Chronic Lyme Disease largely by exclusion and clinical presentation; I may have had it for years! Treatment for Chronic Lyme Disease began with oral antibiotics and immediately I was exceedingly miserable. By February I was no longer able to work in my profession as an occupational therapist. We invested in Rife technology coupled with a lower dose of antibiotics, compounded medications, and specific pharmaceutical-grade supplements. Daily seizure attack episodes began shortly thereafter and escalated to an unbelieveable level. (See my You Tube Channel for videos.) A year later in January of 2013, Steve and I learned that mold in our home was likely contributing to these neurological complications. I moved 13 times over 76 days while we fast-tracked the mold remediation of our home in three months so I could return to living there! It turns out that the blue-green algae in the Cedarville Reservoir and mold exposures are both considered “biotoxins” and contribute to Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome. Then as 2014 began the big focus was on resolving a systemic Candida infection with even more restrictive dietary changes. Sish.
2014 ended with the bombshell news that underlying all of this illness was mercury toxicity!!! I investigated chelation then pursued the best mercury speciation testing and detoxification protocol I could find thanks to my chiropractor, family practice physician, and Quicksilver Scientific. Removal of 2 infected and painful, root-canaled teeth followed. While the journey of recovery continued to be difficult five years down the road, I recognized the many cool little life lessons along the way that have served to grow my faith in the Lord no matter what may happen to me! And with the potent neurotoxin burden of mercury (and soon other heavy metals) down, my beloved Steve and I were hopeful that I would soon GET WELL!!!
The Lord, Jesus Christ provided for our needs during this time and directed us through Steve’s leadership, love, and care. The tremendous trials brought Steve and I closer to each other and to His throne of grace. When the isolation of this disease got unbearable, He brought me a local Lyme Support Group, Skype Bible Prayer Group, new friends, my own eBook (Hope Beyond Lyme: The First Year), and meaningful connections with others online including through this blog! Somehow I became an Advanced Master Gardener along the way. A new hobby kept my hands busy when I couldn’t sleep and led me to open then sell my jewelry shop on Etsy called, Trinity Jewelry by Design. I helped plan gardening projects from home and made jewelry late at night when I could not sleep. Although I attempted to write a second eBook (Caring for the Sandwich Generation at Home) and develop a unique home safety product for Two Step Solutions LLC, the severity of the complications rendered me bed-ridden most of the days of 2015. These projects are on indefinite hold yet not forgotten!
January of 2016 began the time to revisit the diagnosis of Chronic Lyme Disease with exceedingly expensive IV antibiotics, experimental treatment for a fungal infection (protomyxzoa rheumatica or FL1953), and genetic coaching by a naturopathic physician. I battled shingles during the Christmas season, was hospitalized, then had to stop the IV antibiotics by January of 2017. Treatment began for three viral infections then for parasites, oh my! Gratefully I was tolerating all of these interventions a bit better than when this journey began over 6 years ago thanks to the nutrigenetic interventions; I made progress in many areas of my overall health. In January of 2018, longstanding TMJ and temporal mandibular disorder issues appeared on my radar as I discovered how cranial nerve impingement can contribute to “movement disorders;” they are largely alleviated by specialized dental appliances. Learn more about our pursuit of this new avenue here.
By June of 2018 the new craniomandibular treatment was helping! We praised the Lord for what appeared to be a true process of healing at last! The wretched episodes were initially down about 80% making the simple act of lying down less of a trigger; reactivity had further improved, sleep/wake cycles became more reasonable, and my activity level slowly increased for the first time in SIX YEARS! Simultaneously caregiver responsibilities for my Aunt Lori increased, posing a challenge to my new gains in health. The stress and flare-ups were crushing. Even so, my beloved husband, Steve, and I remained grateful to the Lord for His sustaining grace-and-mercy through the most hellish years, provision, strength, and presence that sustained with me in my darkest hours as well as in the light of the day, now and forevermore. Steve (aka River Bear!) remained my hero and partner through this incredible journey. Just having a little bit of dirt under my fingernails from a wee bit o’ gardening encouraged me tremendously. Sadly, the improvements did not last despite adjustments in the specialized dental appliances. Something was missing. I felt lost and empty. What now Lord?
2019 UPDATE: My primary Doctor diagnosed me in January (noticing a trend here of new directions at the beginning of a new year?) with a serious autoimmune movement disorder then had little direction for my lifelong care. The end result could lead to becoming wheelchair-bound. I needed more answers before accepting this diagnosis! More of this change of course is documented HERE, HERE and HERE. I found the best Doctors in the country and scheduled an appointment in the Autoimmune Clinic at Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota. After 9 days of consultations and extensive testing we learned 2 important things: my local testing was considered “garbage” and two important diagnoses were wrong! The problem was a misdiagnosed thyroid issue! A drastic change in my thyroid medication began turning around over 6 symptoms within a week, the most significant of which being a permanent reduction in the daily seizures. Over a month later I am more confident than ever that I am on the road to recovery at last! Yay God! Thank you Jesus!
October 23, 2019 UPDATE: While the elimination of thyroid medication and completion of a Functional Movement Disorder Program at Mayo Clinic have had their benefits, the convulsive episodes slowly increased again by the end of the summer. Our spirits were crushed! Then on September 8th while filing some records, I noticed the finding in a CT Scan dated 12.10.18 and again 7.4.19 of a pancreatic cyst. Interventional endoscopy was recommended and not done. This finding was lost to follow-up when a hiatal hernia was diagnosed in December of 2018. The gastroenterology team missed it! You just don’t mess with pancreatic cysts! So after a whirlwind of diagnostic tests, I am scheduled TODAY for an endoscopy ultrasound (very likely with fine needle aspiration) of the cyst. The fascinating part that is keeping me from losing my mind over the risk for CANCER is the concurrent, ongoing issue I have had with balancing my blood sugar. I have now been able to log a relationship between blood sugar fluctuations and the convulsive episodes.
Is this the answer at long, long, long, long, long, last? I dunno. I have had hypoglycemia for decades, but like the hypothyroidism nodules, the treatment for hypoglycemia has changed over the years. No one considered for me that there might be a cause. My Doc gave me a blood sugar meter a few years ago but I have never been able to log anything of significance. Now this cyst is discovered, well, last year, in the organ that produces insulin! And what if it’s easier to address the cyst now that thyroid hormones, which can influence metabolism and blood sugar, is less of a factor? That factor has brought a palpable calmness despite the hellis episodes that continue. So to the top specialist in the area we go tomorrow . . . in the local cancer center . . . .
At some other life-changing points in my life, the Lord gave me these promises from His Word that have remained my benchmarks for life:
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Romans 8 (NIV)
38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Philippians 1:12 (NIV)
12 But I want you to know, brethren, that the things which happened to me have actually turned out for the furtherance of the gospel.
Gentle Reader: I know that my suffering during these past 8 years will not be wasted. Tears are giving way to hope. Click on the “FOLLOW ME” button along the right hand column or at the bottom of your screen to join me on this amazing journey. Let me know you are there, k? May the Lord bless you and lead you to Himself . . . a journey always worth taking! :JJ