While the numbers in my college statistics courses were fascinating and I applied them well in my Master’s thesis, I must admit that math was never really my forte. I’ll blame it on Mr. Courtright! Our Algebra II/Trigonometry course in high school was a constant source of frustration! John and a couple of the other male students would pour over the text book with him at the front of the room trying to understand the lessons he was supposed to be teaching that day. Yeah, you got that right: high school seniors trying to figure out advanced mathematics on the fly! I am so very glad that I never again had to sit through a traditional math class after that one!
Statistics are a different genre though. Statistics often tell a story that we can use to make sense out of the stuff of life. For example, landing one standard deviation from the mean (the average) in a bell-shaped curve can help us feel like things are going to be o.k. most of the time, in the right scenario of course! Enter here special numerals applied to my recent trip with Steve to Georgia and South Carolina that will tell this story better than I can even without a calculator! Oh how I wish some of these were more comforting than the majority of them though . . .
Over 7 days of camping in 2 locations, I was unable to leave the travel trailer 3 of the days due to illness.
My beloved Steve attended 2 of the 3 family wedding-related activities in Georgia and I attended zero.
We travelled over 2,000 miles in my truck with our 67-pound German shepherd, Elle, settled sweetly behind the jump seat of the King Cab. Such a great traveler she has become!
I prepared about 96% of all of my own meals making this trip more of a “business as usual” affair than vacation in the realm of food.
One hour of the five that I spent in our friends’ home on Monday was spent in continuous convulsive episodes on their couch. Thankfully the two young children had already gone off to bed when I crashed; graciously the three adults prayed over me for the Lord’s tender care as we all go forward from the significant stressors in our lives.
The kids and I planted 32 daffodil bulbs the morning we left South Carolina, overplanted with dozens of anise hyssop seeds. Hooray! By Springtime the view from the kitchen window of their log cabin will be alive with flowers interspersed amongst the numerous towering pines.
A threatening wind storm with gusts up to 40 MPH forced us to leave a day early for safety towing our Camplite on the highways to get back home. Just a few minutes after we arrived home at 4:00 a.m., the winds increased again closer to the estimate of 50 MPH by morning. We had blown in just in time, praise the Lord!
Nearly 4 days have passed since we got home and I have yet to clear out, clean out the rest of the trailer as needed after a week of travel. Steve completed the first 5 loads of laundry and about 3 more are left to go. I have been sick in bed for most of the past 3 days, sleeping in late to recover from the nasties which characterize this wretched illness.
Over a dozen doses of a new anti-microbial treatment (Biocidin LSF) have brought both relief and a flare up of symptoms at times: begun when travelling and continued back home when seeking a new direction, new relief, new hope for a future without illness. Two violent convulsive episodes followed on Friday after an appointment with a new specialist and a new lab test, respectively. Many more filled the 2 days that followed. Perhaps this week (and 2 weeks shy of the 4-year anniversary of the first waking seizure attack) there will be an answer to end this suffering? The odds are wearing thin lately for sure.
Yet through it all, I am reminded of the 3 days that my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ died and paid the price for all the negative numbers, the heartaches from what is not right in our world. He knows the mathematics of it all greater than I can ever imagine and holds it all tenderly in the palms of His hands, ready to redeem it for good when He comes again in glory. I choose to believe the promise that His precious thoughts towards me and you too, Gentle Reader, outnumber the grains of sand on the earth (Psalm139), giving us hope for a better tomorrow. For as He thinks fondly of the ones He loves, He also promises to wipe away our every tear someday (Rev 21:4) when the time is right: when time is no longer numbered in eternity with our Heavenly Father, God.
And that my friend is a story worth writing about. A world without limits. A love beyond measure. I just hope that when all is said and done, when it is time for rejoicing in the heavenly realms, that you will be there with me there too? Let not these numbers be wasted! Won’t you accept the love of Christ into your heart this day, this night too? Oh how I hope so dear one.
With love, JJ