The Exchange Rate

Acts 5 New International Version (NIV)

Ananias and Sapphira

Now a man named Ananias, together with his wife Sapphira, also sold a piece of property. With his wife’s full knowledge he kept back part of the money for himself, but brought the rest and put it at the apostles’ feet.

Then Peter said, “Ananias, how is it that Satan has so filled your heart that you have lied to the Holy Spirit and have kept for yourself some of the money you received for the land? Didn’t it belong to you before it was sold? And after it was sold, wasn’t the money at your disposal? What made you think of doing such a thing? You have not lied just to human beings but to God.”

When Ananias heard this, he fell down and died. And great fear seized all who heard what had happened. Then some young men came forward, wrapped up his body, and carried him out and buried him.

About three hours later his wife came in, not knowing what had happened. Peter asked her, “Tell me, is this the price you and Ananias got for the land?”

“Yes,” she said, “that is the price.”

Peter said to her, “How could you conspire to test the Spirit of the Lord? Listen! The feet of the men who buried your husband are at the door, and they will carry you out also.”

10 At that moment she fell down at his feet and died. Then the young men came in and, finding her dead, carried her out and buried her beside her husband. 11 Great fear seized the whole church and all who heard about these events.

Now that’s a serious consequence for lying!  A death sentence!  In the early Christian church, believers were giving freely of their wares and wealth for the cause of spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  I love our pastor’s commentary on this story (Paul Mowery).  He explains that the point of the story is not that everyone had to sell everything they had to live as followers of Jesus Christ.  The point is that Ananias and Sapphira were hypocritical in their outward gesture of donating the money from the sale of their land then holding back a portion for themselves.  They were “lying by omission,” or making an appearance of generosity that was not completely true.  They paid for their masquerade with their lives as the Lord was purging sin from the early church.  To have a pure message of honesty and transparency was critical in the beginning of a movement that would change the world forever.

To die for one’s actions or beliefs is the highest exchange rate for one’s actions that can possibly be paid.  What could be greater in this life?  That is why the Lord gave His own life at the cross in exchange and atonement for our sins.  He gave the greatest gift He could possibly sacrifice so that we may be forgiven of our transgressions and live in fellowship with Him forever in heaven.  Gratefully we often get a second chance to make things right, seek forgiveness, and so on when we fail in our Christian walk.  We don’t usually die for our sins, per se.  Should I face death for my actions someday I do hope that it will be for my faith in Jesus Christ and not as a consequence of my mistakes.  Or as a hypocrite.  Gentle Reader:  have you thought about such things?

Hmmmm.  The ultimate exchange rate is death.  Today I can relate to a lesser one too.  Let me explain.

Yesterday I was given an opportunity to participate in an outdoor show of Master Gardener artisans and their handiwork.  Gratefully I was among five vendors on display in the Woodland Garden of the Allen County Extension Office (Indiana) as part of our annual Garden Walk.  I enjoyed putting together a new display of the best creations from Trinity Jewelry by Design, visiting with my fellow Master Gardeners, and meeting many avid gardeners/shoppers who came by.  A few went home with some of my jewelry to the delight of my heart!  The weather was mild and the cost was only a small donation and a few bug bites!  The morning was lovely indeed.

T J by D in the Woodland Garden, Allen County Extension Office, Garden Walk July 19, 2014
T J by D in the Woodland Garden, Allen County Extension Office, Garden Walk July 19, 2014

However I knew I was over my activity limit as we were cleaning up afterwards:  I could hardly hold my face together to smile.  By the time I got into my truck to drive home I wasn’t sure just how I would make it home.  If I relaxed even a tiny bit it felt like my body would erupt into seizure attacks.  If I rallied enough energy to drive home with the utmost intensity of focus I would probably make it the 25 minutes o.k. but face more intense seizure attacks later on.  I opted for plan B.

The next 21 hours after I got home were hell on earth.  Sure I was unable to unpack my truck and take care of the dog before crashing onto our bed.  Then I came unglued with a long episode of seizure attacks yet gratefully not the worst of late.  The exhaustion from 3 hours of sleep the night before somehow reduced their intensity.  Well, o.k.  Thank you Jesus for the 4 more hours of uninterrupted sleep that followed!  Unfortunately, things did not go so well as I was waking up.  When a feeling of “tazoring” greets the disorientation of a deep sleep, all is not well with the world.  I lain in bed with tic attacks on and off until midnight.  When I got up to finish a light meal thereafter I’d wished I was back in bed!  Convulsions are dangerous sitting at the kitchen table and it certainly worried the pup quite a bit too.  Oh yeah, Steve was standing by as my daily night in shining armor, just in case he needed to carry me back to bed.  Nope.  Made it on my own this time.

The middle of the evening was quite interesting as well.  Steve and I now agree that his paddling on the murky waters of the St. Mary River in Fort Wayne this morning provided an insidious, noxious exposure for me.  He had taken numerous precautions after returning home from his victorious kayak race.  As it turns out, one shower and change of clothing was not enough.  This dear man took a second shower with a second clean towel and change of clothing for me despite exhaustion from racing and mowing the lawn while I was sleeping!  Yes, Steve is a saint!  Figuring all of this out was very intense for us with both a heated exchange of words and extremely violent convulsions.  The three episodes of the latter included screaming in torment at the top of my lungs!  I could not help it.  My brain was on fire and the vocalizations just came out.  Those of you who do not believe that hell is a real place have never experienced a glimpse of it here on earth.  The Bible talks about weeping, gnashing of teeth, eternal fire, and eternal torment.  I say get right with Jesus NOW!  You don’t want this forever if you don’t!

I woke up about 6 times with the tazoring thing.  The last episode was shortly after I awakened Sunday morning around 11:00 a.m.  Steve had already gone off to church so I lain there alone.  Sometimes I just can’t sort out what is more terrifying:  the symptoms themselves or experiencing them when home alone?  Both are wretched.  By the grace of God I managed not to panic as I have been through this torture hundreds of times before.  Yes, that’s hundreds with thousands of individual incidences!  The number is just enough to know that based upon my experiences, they will not kill me and at some point I will be able to function at some level.  That level came shortly thereafter as I made my way to the bathroom then finally to the kitchen to satisfy my ravenous appetite.  At least these episodes burn a few calories!  Sish.  Very weakly , today began.

So four hours of near normalcy (just one tic attack during the Garden Walk)  was an exchange for 21 hours of hell plus some sleep.  Not a very good trade-off I’m sure we would agree!  And this is simply how life goes for me.  I set in motion a will to participate in the event on Saturday knowing that for it to be possible would be a miracle.  For at least 5 days prior to yesterday’s event, I had 1-2 hour seizure/tazor episodes from 8-10 in the morning in addition to nightly episodes.  Falling asleep Friday night was typical:  exceedingly awful as usual.  Most every day this past week, morning activities had to be cancelled in response to either the episodes or the recovery time needed thereafter.  Today I am exceedingly grateful for having the opportunity to participate in two activities that I love (i.e. gardening and jewelry-making) with sadness about missing Steve’s kayaking race.

Ah yes, the canoe and kayak race hosted by my husband.  This is the last of the races to be held in our town for the United States Canoe Association Indiana points races and I had already missed the other one by a couple of hours.  The reality is that I simply could not risk standing by the side of the murky St. Mary River with a biotoxin illness near other racers accessing the river.  The noxious aerosols and risk of exposure were too great.  I do try to avoid seizure attacks in public you know!  I had checked out the riverbank earlier in the week on Tuesday before discussing it with Steve and making a final decision.  Given my response to Steve after he came home, I knew that I had made the right, albeit difficult choice.  Life is like that sometimes.

Further, while my own experiences often shared on this blog are particularly wretched, they are NOTHING in comparison to the sacrifices denoted above or in the Biblical record.  I have not lost my life in my own rites, my own rates of exchange of one activity for another.  I chose to participate in the Garden Walk out of an attempt to cope with illness, not to separate my self from the fellowship of the Holy God.  My actions resulted in consequences.  The result of my actions were not based upon sin but upon living in a fallen world because of mankind’s sin.  Disease and strife exist because of the sin of two people in the Garden of Eden at the beginning of time.  They were redeemed by God as we are redeemed by believing in God through His son, Jesus Christ.  He makes all things new, bringing ourselves in eternal fellowship with Him when we humble ourselves and confess our transgressions, believing in what He did for us at His throne of grace.  We also know that when He comes again in glory for His own that He will wipe out disease and strife forever.  Knowing all of this gives me confidence that in the things that matter the most and that I have made the best decisions for my circumstances, for my life.  Most importantly I have chosen to follow Jesus, Lord and Savior of my life.  Someday I will be free from all of this suffering and there no longer will be an “exchange rate” of sorts.  All there will be is JOY.  Yes, joy!

You know, Gentle Reader, I’m hoping that these things that I write about are somehow of benefit to you.  Please don’t spend more than a moment empathizing about me when you can spend the rest of your days experiencing joy with me for all of eternity.  Look beyond this blog to the One who introduced me to you.  I am so grateful that we have come together this day.  May the Lord bless you!  As He does I hope that you will choose to come closer to the One who paid it all for both of us.  I want to meet you someday and in the family of Christ it will happen no matter how far apart we are in this moment.  Then we shall walk together in fellowship with our King in the most exquisite of gardens for a millennia of days . . .

And that my friend is my “Hope Beyond” for this blog.  Love to you,  Just Julie

walk-in-the-light 2 in garden



I just gotta be me!

That's me in 2007
That’s me in 2007

Ten years ago would find me hosting a team of entrepreneurs at a job fair, working in healthcare four days per week, planning holiday travels, and riding my  bike or taking long walks in my neighborhood.  I lived in the west suburbs of Chicago and spent a lot of time in my car.  Traffic, you know!

Twenty years ago would find me learning to landscape my yard and live the married life, working full time, planning holiday travels, adjusting to a new diagnosis of a pain condition, and feeling glad to have my Master of Science degree completed at last.  Painting and decorating the townhouse would preoccupy the weekends in addition to long drives to a Christian mega church on Sunday morning.

Thirty years ago would find me finishing my fieldwork in occupational therapy at a State hospital in Michigan, beginning to search for my first professional job, and balancing family dynamics as a college graduate under my mom’s roof.  Time with friends and a steady boyfriend dominated my free time.

My how times have changed!  This past year I got sick with a serious illness, met the qualifications to become a Master Gardener, started a jewelry business, hosted a booth in two craft shows, took a hiatus from weekly kayaking in a performance surf ski, and learned the true meaning of love in the eyes of my beloved Steve.  The only things missing are the planning of holiday travels and spending a lot of time in my, er, truck.  No car anymore and no suburban living anymore!  I live in a small town near what they call a “big little town” and I like it.

Work is different too.  I work 2 to 6 hours most nights, in the middle of the night, for my online jewelry business and not in a clinic somewhere.  You could also say that I work to get well from Lyme Disease and its co-infections, requiring about 4 hours per day of various tasks that would bore you to list them right now.  (See the Survival Tips page if you’re interested!)  I’ve always valued “work” and have worked since my first babysitting job as a teenager.  Twice before I’ve started my own business.  The study of occupation has been with me and has helped me re-invent my career many times over the years.  I am grateful for most of it!

If I just gotta be me, then I guess I have landed squarely at a place that reflects who I am and who I have been all of my life.  I do believe my life is softer around the edges as the Lord has allowed many trials and blessings to shape who I am today.  There is so much more to learn, do, see, be.  In this moment, I am grateful for all the Lord has given me, good and bad.  After all, I met you didn’t I?  :J

Take this moment in time

To create something beautiful:

A world where we move closer together

With eyes for our Savior, Immanuel,

Where our stories speak with gentleness for

The paths taken and those we did not,

And the work of our hands makes a difference

In today and beyond . . .

For grace will be our companion

His love, peace, and joy.

Life becomes a journey worth the taking,


Would we really want it any other way?

(Julie Lech, July 2006)

It’s Craft Show Season and I’m In

As Saturday gets closer, I’m as excited as I am nervous about what the day will bring.  It’s a big day for me, for sure.

8:00 a.m. to 2:00 p.m. EST Lord willing I’ll be participating in my first Craft Show at a local church.  My display is spread out on the living room floor, ready to go with both knotted hemp and gem/mineral stone selections from Trinity Jewelry by Design.  I am humbled at how the Lord has used this business to keep me going during the trials of Lyme Disease recovery.  Up late at night, working on the jewelry, posting pictures at my online shop, or researching gem/mineral stone descriptions, this has kept me sane.  I did not lose my mind to the forgetfulness, spaciness, brain hiccups after all.  Praise the Lord!  Now I just need to finish up a few things, set up on Friday night and somehow get my butt out of bed (without seizure attacks or headache, please) and to the church by “way too early” Saturday morning.  Who buys crafts at 8 in the morning?  Geez. Maybe the early hours are for the Cookie Walk that’s at the same time?

And if I get there, I’ll be able to do what is needed because I love this kind of venue.  The sweats, the word-finding difficulties, the head pressure, the pain won’t matter as I will be in my element.  Let’s hope the budding throat and ear infection doesn’t take hold either.  If it’s spiritual warfare rising up then I know there’s victory in Christ Jesus.  See Romans 8:38.  No worries there, the issues that are coming up are just “temporary setbacks,” eh?

As if this isn’t enough, there’s another very important appointment at 3:00 p.m.  I am honored to be the “guest patient” at a special training course in chiropractic neurology per the invitation of my family doctor.  Perhaps they will find the key to the seizure attacks and the cure.  Perhaps my doctor will have in hand the result of the sleep-deprived EEG last week, coupled with all my test results.  And with a sleep study scheduled just 2 days later on December 3rd, there should be plenty of data to come up with a plan to annihilate these debilitating episodes.  Hope is on the way!  I’ll bet after the energy stretch of the craft show in the morning, there will be plenty of fireworks for the class to witness.  Humbling to have to be a guinea pig.  Hopeful for some help, in the end.

So now it’s time to prep some product info. for my friend’s gem and mineral stone jewelry.  It’s all in the mix.  I feel sick.  I’ll do it sick anyways.  It’s Craft Show season, and I’m in!  Cool beans.

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