Psalm 71

Psalm 71

In you, Lord, I have taken refuge;     let me never be put to shame. In your righteousness, rescue me and deliver me;     turn your ear to me and save me. Be my rock of refuge,     to which I can always go; give the command to save me,     for you are my rock and my fortress. Deliver me, my God, from the hand of the wicked,     from the grasp of those who are evil and cruel.

For you have been my hope, Sovereign Lord,     my confidence since my youth. From birth I have relied on you;     you brought me forth from my mother’s womb.     I will ever praise you. I have become a sign to many;     you are my strong refuge. My mouth is filled with your praise,     declaring your splendor all day long.

Do not cast me away when I am old;     do not forsake me when my strength is gone. 10 For my enemies speak against me;     those who wait to kill me conspire together. 11 They say, “God has forsaken him;     pursue him and seize him,     for no one will rescue him.” 12 Do not be far from me, my God;     come quickly, God, to help me. 13 May my accusers perish in shame;     may those who want to harm me     be covered with scorn and disgrace.

14 As for me, I will always have hope;     I will praise you more and more.

15 My mouth will tell of your righteous deeds,     of your saving acts all day long—     though I know not how to relate them all. 16 I will come and proclaim your mighty acts, Sovereign Lord;     I will proclaim your righteous deeds, yours alone. 17 Since my youth, God, you have taught me,     and to this day I declare your marvelous deeds. 18 Even when I am old and gray,     do not forsake me, my God, till I declare your power to the next generation,     your mighty acts to all who are to come.

19 Your righteousness, God, reaches to the heavens,     you who have done great things.     Who is like you, God? 20 Though you have made me see troubles,     many and bitter,     you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth     you will again bring me up. 21 You will increase my honor     and comfort me once more.

22 I will praise you with the harp     for your faithfulness, my God; I will sing praise to you with the lyre,     Holy One of Israel. 23 My lips will shout for joy     when I sing praise to you—     I whom you have delivered. 24 My tongue will tell of your righteous acts     all day long, for those who wanted to harm me     have been put to shame and confusion.

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Tonight as my body thrashed about I cried out to the Lord, asking “don’t you see me?”

Tonight I cried out for the Lord to take me, as in take me home.  He did not answer.

Tonight I cried out asking Him not to leave me here this way.  He did not answer.

The after burn of the seizure attacks, flu-spikes, chest compression symptoms making breathing labored, increased pain, and massive neck headache was unbearable once again this evening.  Things are getting worse.  This was my third episode today with over two dozen individual incidences!

My precious husband got out of bed after 1:00 a.m. to get me something to eat in an effort to end the tic attacks that would not stop after the seizures. 

It is now over an hour later and I am stable.  I am beat up.  I am still here!

 I will remind myself to have hope, to cultivate hope that comes through faith in Jesus Christ.  Sometimes He speaks and sometimes He is silent.  And for those who believe in Him, He is always present.

Psalm 71 puts it all together for me right now, so this is how I will pray as I go forth from this night.  And that’s about how far I have gotten.  My tummy hurts.  Time to go back to bed.  I think I can sleep now.

Rambling thoughts saving this day

What could have continued as a wretched day, did not.  For this I am grateful.

When my course of overall treatment seemed to need a brand new direction in a far away place, I discovered it did not, gratefully.

Where I thought I would be two years down this road trip of illness is not where I had hoped and it’s o.k.; I thank the Lord for His continuing grace.

Who ever thought I would be connecting with so many different people in so many far away places?  Not I and I am blessed for things going this way instead.

Why I spend so much time setting goals when the moment is far more worthy of my attention, I’ll never know.  I am thankful for the fullness of living in the now and not yesterday or tomorrow.  This minute is all we have to live in anyways, right?

How I ever thought I would find something meaningful to say tonight eluded me when I first started typing.  I hope these are Your words, my Heavenly Father, my King, my Lord.  I hope they bring you glory and honor this night and with each and every blog that spits out onto this page.

So with a humble heart I must say that I am confused as to where my life is going yet not Who is in control of it’s course or outcome.  My mind is mushy as I recover from a tough night with:  a few scrambled brain transmissions, an enlightening visit from my Lyme-Literate MD, and a week of wacky medical appointments for sure.  There’s so much other stuff to do this weekend yet I have too depleted of energy reserves to much of anything.  Guess I’ll start with breakfast when I wake up in the middle of the day and take it from there, one moment at a time.  Some important things did get done this past week; I am humbled.  Thank you Lord for making it so.

The conclusion might read like the 12th Step of Recovery in Al Anon:  Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to others, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.  Well here’s my message tonight and I’m working on “walking the talk” as they say too.  However the best inspiration, the best encouragement won’t come from me or a recovery program (that ultimately helped lead me to a personal relationship with God).  It comes directly from His Word:

You, who have shown me great and severe troubles, Shall revive me again, And bring me up again from the depths of the earth.  You shall increase my greatness And comfort me on every side.  Also with the lute I will praise You – And your faithfulness, O my God!  (Psalm 71:20-22)

Perhaps if we meditate on these words we will no only save the day, we will find hope, love, and joy in His promise of redeeming grace.  This is a promise for you, Gentle Reader, if your trust is in the Son of God alone.  Oh won’t you join me in seeking Him this day my friend?  Let our words, our thoughts mean more than rambling but resound with praise for His holy name, the name Jesus Christ.  What could be more significant than when we place our trust where the One who loves us beyond measure gives us every reason why to follow Him?  These are things to think about for sure.  :J

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Reflecting on God’s majestic Niagra Falls, Canada

From the bathroom mirror

Psalm 71:  20-22 (NKJV)

You, who have shown me great and severe troubles,

Shall revive me again,

And bring me up again from the depths of the earth.

21 You shall increase my greatness, And comfort me on every side.

22 Also with the lute I will praise You—

And Your faithfulness, O my God!

To You I will sing with the harp, O Holy One of Israel.

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Yes Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer,

My hope and my rest.

Thank you for Your timeless Words.

Thank you for revealing Yourself and Your truths to me this day.

May all who find them come to know you and love you exceedingly.

In Jesus name, Amen.

J